To the Man Who Broke My Heart....

Horrible. Disgusting. Immature. Infuriating. Mauplitive.

All of these words describe you. Youare a horrible person and treat people like crap. You don’t understand that every choice you make and made have a lasting consequence. “The past is the past” is what you always say, but what you don’t understand is your past actions shape someone else’s future. You were the person I was supposed to spend the rest of my life with. Grow old with and raise a family with. I had a future planned out I had hopes and dreams and goals, and by no choice of my own those came crashing down. I want you to feel the pain I felt. I want you to go through the heartbreak I felt. To sit there and realize that the person I thought I was closest to in the world, the person that said he loved me more than anything was nothing but a nasty liar who used me. I hate you. I don’t want you to be happy. I want your life to be a living hell because that is what you made my life with your immature choices. You don’t deserve to be happy.

All of that being said I forgive you. Because of your choices I have learned I am stronger than I ever thought I would be. I have a better sense of self worth and I’m not afraid of being alone now. I know because of the hell you put me through that I can handle anything that gets thrown at me. I have learned what I want from a relationship and what I don’t want. You have left me with so many issues that I am trying to navigate, but thank you. Thank you for teaching me that just because something get broken doesn’t mean you can’t create something beautiful and new out of what is left.

I would be lying if I said I still didn’t want to see you hurt just as much as you hurt me but with time that will fade too, but for right now thank you for teaching me these lessons even if it was the hard way. I forgive you but I will never forget what you did or put my daughter and I through.